In celebration of finally getting my beloved camera fixed - my favourite photographers.
Today; David Lachapelle.









'Milkmaid' is possibly my favourite photograph of his, and probably in the top ten of my favourite photographs of all time.

formspring.me

I've had an account for a while now and it's a lot of fun; http://www.formspring.me/scarlettalice

on another note, I really really need a job. I also can't stop thinking about university. I've had a conditional offer from Keele which (I'm pretty sure) is my first choice, but I haven't heard back from Bath Spa or London Met yet and if they both offer me a place, it's going to be so tough to choose between them!

Mundane

Things are dull lately, what with exams and revision and all.... hopefully life will be more interesting soon.
On another note I am going to try to be happier.

Today

today is no better.

I need a remarkable life.

GRAMMAR

and spelling torment me.

I hate that once a post is posted you cannot edit it, even though it makes sense.
I will finish Nineteen Eight-Four tonight.

Blue

Today I feel terrible. I am depressed, which is strange because I aquired some new material possessions; this usually leaves me enlightened. I will always let my happiness rely on 'having' things. Things don't let you down. Put all your hope and love into a person and you most likely will end up unhappy. And even if that person doesn't crush you in one way or another, you will always be living in fear that they will be snatched from you, (possibly by someone else) will come home one day tearful from the doctors'. You'll have to go with them for CAT scans, or injections or chemotherapy or all of these and more. You will have to hold them while they suffer and cry and you will have be strong for yourself and them because they won't be able to be.
In the end they will die and you will be without them after weeks, months, years of being together and relying on each other for happiness and fulfillment. It's simply not worth it. Or, you will die first. Maybe that's the best outcome.
Today is not a good day.

Being a horrible person

isn't all it's cracked up to be.
Having been a complete and utter fuckwit the past few days, I must admit that some kind of punishment is needed.
I will begin a two week water/coffee fast tomorrow. I can't enjoy food at the moment anyway, and I need to feel like I'm doing something to make up for the world's more horrible friend act I've committed.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
I am sorry.